Ep# 142: How I fired myself from my soul sucking 9-5 - The Decision

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Welcome back to another episode of the Helsey is Dorsey podcast. I am so, so excited to be. On the show today, I came by myself. But, uh, one of the things that I really want to talk about, and this is very. Very vulnerable for me. I'm seen as though I haven't talked about it much only to a select a few people. Um, and is that I hurt myself from my nine to five. Which I am really excited about. Um, it is something that I will want and so long. And I wanted the opportunity to have my own business start my own business. And, um, I prayed on it. A lot. So. I'm going to get to, I know, I know I have a podcast episode and I have to find it episode. I'm talking all about my nine to five being and how it was, and there was toxic. And I'm, I don't want to go into too many details on maybe I will one day, but, um, it's being, there was something that. You know, I'm pretty sure all of you can relate to it. The. What do you want to call it? The politics, the toxic newness, the. You know, you work so hard, you know, all the things in the department. So I was a supervisor for a furniture institution. I will not say the name. And I been there 18 years. And, um, I have definitely moved up. I'm worked to move up. I moved up to become a supervisor eventually. And I. Was a supervisor over a department, had my crew up under me. Um, And it was cool. I learned how to run a department. It was a running like a well-oiled machine. It was awesome. Um, my team members was amazing. Uh, you know, they got on my nerves at times, but, you know, Through team members they're supposed to. If your children right. Um, so here at real good dynamic and I learned so much along the way. Um, But. Here comes the issue. When you have so many different. Managers or leadership. Over you and it keep rotating and keep rotating and keep rotating. And you have these different leaders. That's over you and they have their way that they want to do things, which is fine. Okay. But, you know, your work. You know, so much with your work. And you work. To prove your worth. They still don't see it because in their mind, They already have a person in mind. They want. To be in that spot or to be in your possession no matter. How much, you know, It doesn't matter. It do not matter. The thing of it is in the corporate world is not about what, you know, what you learn or what you can do. It's about who, you know, and it centrally who. We're in. You can kiss. And I say that. Because we all know that this true. In the corporate world. You can have all the degrees and I'm sorry, I moved from my mic. If you can hear my mic, but you can have all the degrees, you have all the accolades. But if you're not aided, if you're not networking, if you're not speaking to the right person, if you're not friends with the right person, then guess what. You don't matter. That's just how it goes. Okay. You got to the point where when I was passed up for multiple opportunities while I was passed up for being a manager, Um, I was like, okay, well maybe I'll try again, but. Oh, just say who they put in. It just didn't work. It was very toxic. It was very hard for me. To do my work. It was very hard to focus. It was very hard to be. Bad leader that I knew that I could be. Because you're constantly hearing. That you're not. We're not innovative enough. All you want to do is. You want to, what's the, what's the term for. Um, you're comfortable. You don't want to move up. You know, we don't see that. That's what you want to do. And it's like, We'll do I have to kiss the wise, but to even move up, I mean like what the proof is in the pudding. I don't have to wave my hand and say, Hey. Picked me. My proof is in my work and my job. And there's no other candidates out there that's like that. So that was definitely hard for me to swallow. And I had to endure that. Almost every single month, every single time. And it was always something like, I will take that information, I will say, okay, I'll try to do my best to, you know, To put in the effort, all the things to say that they were, that I was not. I was trying to turn around and say, yes, I was. And then it just wasn't good enough. And when you can tell him multiple times, basically figure out what you want to do. You have couple months figure it out. I was like, What is it? Y. So got on my nerves. Um, and I just pray, I just prayed. But let me rewind back to. 2020. During the pandemic. During the pandemic. When I was at home. It was the perfect time for me. It was the perfect time till I really sit. And say, okay, Candice, if you want. To eventually have your own business. You need to start paying for it. So that's what I did. I wrote down everything that. Essentially, I need to clear up as far as like bills. Um, What else I had, like, we have car note, all that stuff. So I wrote down everything we had and I said, okay, we clear up all of these things. If not clear it up, get all these things, getting cert. Certain bills down. And then when it's time for me to make that transition or that shift, it will be no problem. Like I'll have the money in the bank. The bills will be low enough to where. So if I needed to get a part-time job until my business get started, I can do so. So I did. I worked hard. We worked like, you know, Really hard to get bills down. I pay cars off. Um, Pay things down. Get rid of the streaming service. Uh, also save. And the thing of it is you add up all your bills. Once you get certain bills down in certain bills, you just can't get down. You had all your bills and say, okay, how much money do I need a month? To actually live off of and pay these bills until. Things start taking off. Now, now I know a lot of you probably listening and saying, well, Candace, um, She and you have waited until your business took off, or should you have worked at another job? Before you left. The thing of it is. No. No. Y. Why. I saved. Enough money. By the grace of God. To be able. To be off how many ever months. And I'm so grateful because my mom supported me 100% on this. Also taking into consideration. I don't have any children. So that actually helped. Um, But. Yeah. I could have, I could have applied for another job, but I said, I don't want to, I don't want to be under somebody. I don't want to make somebody else rich while I'm sitting here. Scraping up for food. I don't, I can't do it. I don't want to do it anymore. It's time for me to come into myself and make something for myself so that I can leave something for my kids one day. Um, or so I can have something. For myself. That I'm over. Make my old self rich. Okay. So. I did that. And I worked on that. And. When it was time, I knew it. I knew it was time. And I'm going to tell you. That is the most scariest thing ever in your life. Well, you're scared about doing something like that. It is so scary. I had reservations. I've had anxiety. I've had it all. It was the most. No horrifying feeling, but yeah, it was. It was scary because if, when you do things repetitiously for like 18 years, That's all, you know, I've been working since I was 21, like full-time drivers since I was 21. Been really working since I was 15, but I have never like had that moment. Where. I was off. So. He did that. And I knew it was time. Aye. Felt it. I felt it. And you know, where you feel it. I gave my notice. And. It looks Breen. But of course the hard part. Is. You know, you'll definitely have those around you. That's where I, I haven't told any of my family members, I don't need to know. But you have those around you. That'd be like, why are you doing that? You're crazy. This, and then the other, understand this number one, they have no heaven or hell to put you in. That's number one. Number two, they are not paying your bills. And number three. They are not, you. Simple as that. Because everybody. Think in their mind, I'm not gonna say everybody, but people, especially your loved ones around you. We totally understand that they want you to be safe, but in their mind, They want them to be safe. It's not about you. It is not about you. When they telling you that. It's not about you. It's about them. My response is, I know you love me. I know. I totally, I, I gained 100%. But. If I don't do this. If i don't leave i'm probably going to dive actually from a heart attack. I've heard horror stories Oh people dying on the job having a heart attack never to be recovered again. From working like whole. Like seriously Oh my goodness that's another story for another day but So that's my decision Okay That's how it came to this point Okay So if you are thinking of your mind or who contemplating about leaving your nine to five So i'm working on your plan Star wars